Beginning with the end in mind.

It never really occured to me that dreams that I have are meant to be converted into reality, all along I thought that these things will just materialize from nothing right in front of me. I've always had that end in mind but I never began, I never started, I never stepped off the first block.

Changes

I wanted a lot of things growing up; I wanted to have hoarde of automobiles at my disposal, a penthouse suite like any other player out there, and an endless supply of money to fill and olympic sized pool where I'll swim in every morning. I still want the same things in life but ultimately, I want my life to start.

Rock Bottom

I hit rock bottom... Cold, slimy, moldy rock bottom. Just when you think you can't get any lower; you find yourself no longer falling, no longer spiraling out of control but your body sprawled againts the cold, slimy, moldy ROCK BOTTOM.

Growing up 30

Soon as I see her walk up in the club (I'm a flirt) Winkin eyes at me, when I roll up on them dubs (I'm a flirt) Sometimes when I'm with my chick on the low (I'm a flirt)


***Click***
Me: Hello...
Dude: Yo! You still in bed? Git yo bum ass outta bed, be there in an hour!
Me: Mmm..kay.
***Click***

Making Love...

Hey! Where you at? Hit me up when your free... I need to talk to you...

That was an FB message sent to me earlier; confused, I replied immediately and asked the person to meet me. Thoughts swirled in my head as I figured out what could've been this urgent and important. I waited anxiously.

In pursuit...

the mouse scurries away upon seeing a grey cat looming in the shadows, it smiles as it whispers to itself "it starts"...

We've always found ourselves in a similar situation when it comes to love. Why do we even bother when often times it eludes us leaving us wriggling and squirming in complete and total consuming pain? Why? Why do we even subject ourself to this torture knowing that there is an enormous possiblity that we are in for big surprise at the end?

Whatever the outcome maybe; the cat may not always catch the mouse, I know that the chase makes it all worth the while.

Expectations...

“I am not in this world to live up to other people's expectations, nor do I feel that the world must live up to mine.”-- Fritz Perls

It was nothing more but two people enjoying each others company while retaining their independence and identity.

What a distressing contrast there is between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult.

-- Sigmund Freud

would you believe me?

What if i tell you i love you, would you believe me?

What if i tell you i love you because when you’re around i can’t help but smile. would you believe me?

What if i tell you i love you because when you’re around i get butterflies in my stomach. would you believe me?

in my dreams

You were with me.
You held my hand as I held yours.
You kiss me back everytime I kiss you.
You hold me tight to chase all my fears away.

In my dreams...

You were mine.

Mirror

EEeeeeeeeeeeeek!

A princess screams as the nemesis grabs her by the wrist and drags her to his lair.
The princess with beauty so mesmerizing, so calming now in rags and tears.
Her tormented soul brings a sharp pain through my heart as I watch.
Prompted by the agony that unfolds before my very eyes; with my polished armor I reach for my trusty shield and double edged sword, to her rescue, I came running.

... my drug...

your eyes... invite
your scent... lingers
your smile... infects
your laugh... hypnotizes
your heart... captivates

i have been ensnared...entangled...
try to fight it but im powerless...
try to resist but i grow weaker...

im hooked on my own personal blend of addiction... YOU

eight months ago...

I finally found the person I want to spend my life with.

Something in me changed... unconsciously.

I started to think less of myself and more of the other person...

I was overwhelmed... with things that were alien to me.

YOUR LAUGHTER by: Pablo Neruda

Take breath away from me, if you wish,
take air away, but
do not take from me your laughter.

The last love letter...

I love you...
There is nothing sweeter on my lips than these three words, knowing that they are meant for you. I long for the morning to come, so I can wake up with you as the first thought on my mind; but, also, I yearn for the night that I may bask in dreams of you. Everyday, I can't wait to be with you, but I also love missing you because it only builds up my desire to be with you once more.

I love you...
This may be the last time I say these words. They may be as sweet as honey on my lips but they bring thorns to my heart knowing that I can never let you know. I will keep these words to the grave for I know I will never get a chance to utter them in your presence.

I love you...
but that's a secret I have to keep...


*sigh*

Worthy

One clear night, at a roof deck somewhere, I knelt on one knee and wore my heart on my sleeve. As the stars and the moon as my witness, I boldly declared my love and asked my significant other if we can spend our lifetime together. Yes was the answer, but, sadly that lifetime was shortly lived. Instead of settling down, we parted ways; that was the end of my delusions of settling down.

Word Vomit

Often times we see people chugging drinks more than they can handle. They gab incessantly as they down bottles of alcohol one after the other not knowing that they are well over their tolerance. As the night tarries on, the number of bottles accumulate and their alcohol reaches to an overwhelming level. Then, they realize, the room is spinning, their ears are ringing and cold sweats are suddenly rolling down their faces. They try to stand but they stagger as they try to keep composure. A few spasms and a couple of burps, the floodgates open spewing partly digested stomach contents like a volcano with all its fury. Too bad for by standers when the second wave reaches their designer clothes, good thing there are dry cleaners out there.

All bark but no bite...

I HOPE YOU ENJOY DISAPPOINTMENT...

coz I might forget dates...
coz I might not deliver some of my promises...
coz I might say something and do otherwise...
coz I might not be there when it matters most...
coz I might not be as you've imagined me to be...
coz I might not live up to your expectations...
coz I might be insensitive at times...
coz I might just be all bark...

I might be... but it doesn't mean Ill always be...

I crave...

Hmm...
I can't think of anything else but that tall, slender body that is oh so warm to the touch. That scent that sends shivers down my spine; an aroma that wakes up my senses. I still remember the scalding heat that emanates from you when ever my lips touch yours, oh such sweet pain. I love to relish every single drop of that white ooze that seeps from you, the taste is like heaven to my tongue scintillating every single taste bud. I want more of you, I want to savor your every drop for each one brings me unspeakable pleasure. I'll never part from you, you are an addiction I never want to lose, a habit I would never want to break.

Oh my tall cup of hot, steamy cappuccino, I'm all yours and I wont replace you with any other coffee drinks out there.

Happily, deeply inlove...

Ten years ago two people met, got close and soon enough, became friends.
Ten years ago two hearts met, but they belonged to someone else.
Ten years ago two eyes met, not knowing that soon they'll be longing to gaze into each other.
All these happened ten years ago.